A 40oz. To Freedom

so tonight me, jay bell, and corey D. wemt surfing at like 5. it was awesome. waves were nice, water was actully surprisinly warm, it was just purly amazing, surfing in the pitch dark under the moon. soo awesome. then we stopped surfing a little ater 8 packed up and went to surf taco. then....when we went to surf taco i had the tsunami burrito and its like a 2 foot long burrito i guess, like arms length and i had to eat it in 15 min. and i did so they put my picture up on the wall. its awesome. so if you ever go to manasquan beach, surf taco, cheack it out, im on the wall next to the soda machine. then after that i went outside and puked it all up on some guys front steps cause i didnt wanna get fat from it, and after i was just finishing puking the guy pulled into the driveway so we all ran jumped in the car and told mr.donahue to drive and we sped off. it was the best. eating that burrito and succeding was my goal for the summer, now i just gotta do it at the other surf taco, and my dream will be complete. well im gonna go shower then go to sleep, im beat. hang loose!!!

yeah whats up havnt posted in a long while but nothing too exciting has been happening except for school even though that isnt exciting. well today im going surfing around 5 i cant wait, surfing on a school night then having surf taco for dinner, mmmmm its gonna be good. well im out just wanted to tell you all id be surfing tonight. buh bye sweethearts

Current Mood: anxious to surf

THE OVAL PORTRAIT
Edgar Allan Poe, 1850


THE CHATEAU into which my valet had ventured to make forcible entrance, rather than permit me, in my desperately wounded condition, to pass a night in the open air, was one of those piles of commingled gloom and grandeur which have so long frowned among the Appennines, not less in fact than in the fancy of Mrs. Radcliffe. To all appearance it had been temporarily and very lately abandoned. We established ourselves in one of the smallest and least sumptuously furnished apartments. It lay in a remote turret of the building. Its decorations were rich, yet tattered and antique. Its walls were hung with tapestry and bedecked with manifold and multiform armorial trophies, together with an unusually great number of very spirited modern paintings in frames of rich golden arabesque. In these paintings, which depended from the walls not only in their main surfaces, but in very many nooks which the bizarre architecture of the chateau rendered necessary- in these paintings my incipient delirium, perhaps, had caused me to take deep interest; so that I bade Pedro to close the heavy shutters of the room- since it was already night- to light the tongues of a tall candelabrum which stood by the head of my bed- and to throw open far and wide the fringed curtains of black velvet which enveloped the bed itself. I wished all this done that I might resign myself, if not to sleep, at least alternately to the contemplation of these pictures, and the perusal of a small volume which had been found upon the pillow, and which purported to criticise and describe them.

Long- long I read- and devoutly, devotedly I gazed. Rapidly and gloriously the hours flew by and the deep midnight came. The position of the candelabrum displeased me, and outreaching my hand with difficulty, rather than disturb my slumbering valet, I placed it so as to throw its rays more fully upon the book.

But the action produced an effect altogether unanticipated. The rays of the numerous candles (for there were many) now fell within a niche of the room which had hitherto been thrown into deep shade by one of the bed-posts. I thus saw in vivid light a picture all unnoticed before. It was the portrait of a young girl just ripening into womanhood. I glanced at the painting hurriedly, and then closed my eyes. Why I did this was not at first apparent even to my own perception. But while my lids remained thus shut, I ran over in my mind my reason for so shutting them. It was an impulsive movement to gain time for thought- to make sure that my vision had not deceived me- to calm and subdue my fancy for a more sober and more certain gaze. In a very few moments I again looked fixedly at the painting.

That I now saw aright I could not and would not doubt; for the first flashing of the candles upon that canvas had seemed to dissipate the dreamy stupor which was stealing over my senses, and to startle me at once into waking life.

The portrait, I have already said, was that of a young girl. It was a mere head and shoulders, done in what is technically termed a vignette manner; much in the style of the favorite heads of Sully. The arms, the bosom, and even the ends of the radiant hair melted imperceptibly into the vague yet deep shadow which formed the back-ground of the whole. The frame was oval, richly gilded and filigreed in Moresque. As a thing of art nothing could be more admirable than the painting itself. But it could have been neither the execution of the work, nor the immortal beauty of the countenance, which had so suddenly and so vehemently moved me. Least of all, could it have been that my fancy, shaken from its half slumber, had mistaken the head for that of a living person. I saw at once that the peculiarities of the design, of the vignetting, and of the frame, must have instantly dispelled such idea- must have prevented even its momentary entertainment. Thinking earnestly upon these points, I remained, for an hour perhaps, half sitting, half reclining, with my vision riveted upon the portrait. At length, satisfied with the true secret of its effect, I fell back within the bed. I had found the spell of the picture in an absolute life-likeliness of expression, which, at first startling, finally confounded, subdued, and appalled me. With deep and reverent awe I replaced the candelabrum in its former position. The cause of my deep agitation being thus shut from view, I sought eagerly the volume which discussed the paintings and their histories. Turning to the number which designated the oval portrait, I there read the vague and quaint words which follow:

"She was a maiden of rarest beauty, and not more lovely than full of glee. And evil was the hour when she saw, and loved, and wedded the painter. He, passionate, studious, austere, and having already a bride in his Art; she a maiden of rarest beauty, and not more lovely than full of glee; all light and smiles, and frolicsome as the young fawn; loving and cherishing all things; hating only the Art which was her rival; dreading only the pallet and brushes and other untoward instruments which deprived her of the countenance of her lover. It was thus a terrible thing for this lady to hear the painter speak of his desire to pourtray even his young bride. But she was humble and obedient, and sat meekly for many weeks in the dark, high turret-chamber where the light dripped upon the pale canvas only from overhead. But he, the painter, took glory in his work, which went on from hour to hour, and from day to day. And be was a passionate, and wild, and moody man, who became lost in reveries; so that he would not see that the light which fell so ghastly in that lone turret withered the health and the spirits of his bride, who pined visibly to all but him. Yet she smiled on and still on, uncomplainingly, because she saw that the painter (who had high renown) took a fervid and burning pleasure in his task, and wrought day and night to depict her who so loved him, yet who grew daily more dispirited and weak. And in sooth some who beheld the portrait spoke of its resemblance in low words, as of a mighty marvel, and a proof not less of the power of the painter than of his deep love for her whom he depicted so surpassingly well. But at length, as the labor drew nearer to its conclusion, there were admitted none into the turret; for the painter had grown wild with the ardor of his work, and turned his eyes from canvas merely, even to regard the countenance of his wife. And he would not see that the tints which he spread upon the canvas were drawn from the cheeks of her who sate beside him. And when many weeks bad passed, and but little remained to do, save one brush upon the mouth and one tint upon the eye, the spirit of the lady again flickered up as the flame within the socket of the lamp. And then the brush was given, and then the tint was placed; and, for one moment, the painter stood entranced before the work which he had wrought; but in the next, while he yet gazed, he grew tremulous and very pallid, and aghast, and crying with a loud voice, 'This is indeed Life itself!' turned suddenly to regard his beloved:- She was dead!

Current Mood: whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
Current Music: this is probly my last entry, im sick of this crap

so today i woke up at like 130 cause nick called my cell, we wanted to go to sportsexy but had no money nor no ride. so i went to nicks and we walked around we found an empty field and a garage with a really old car in it but it belongs to someone. then jimmy and eric came and we went to gregs but on our way there we met greg on the street so greg had to bike home and then he got in the car and we went to little falls cause they had a street fair. it sucked cause we got there at like 445 and it was like closing down so we got drinks and greg and jim ate and we walked around for a few min. then we left and went back to gregs garage sat there, erics sister and her 2 friends came and we sat there still, me and greg moved a matress into the top part of the garage for people to go when they wanna fool around ;) then we went outside and we started kicking a soccer ball around then we all went to south end school to play ultimate frisbee, i havnt ran in a long time i think i still have smoker lungs, or im just out of shape, i gotta start running again. then me and eric quite the game cause we couldnt run anymore cause everyone else plays sports and are use to it, which i should be too cause im always running from the cops but thats easier. then eric called his dad and we went back to gregs garage to wait for his dad to come and we went home and i fell asleep playing tony hawk 4. and now im here, im dead beat so im gonna go soon. talk to you all tomorrow in school, ugh its gonna suck it feels like i didnt even go back yet.

Current Mood: tierd
Current Music: saves the day - hold

so today i was was suspended from school also so i woke upo at 2 watched CSI and then just like hung out, ate new england clam chowder then came online to see what everyone was doing tonight. then around 6 seigle came over we chilled then...guess who had wendys spicy chicken....yep i did, i had wendys spicy chicken for dinner my dad got it, it was awesome. then around 730 we went to erics hung out there for a little and around 8 we decided to go to gregs, so we are all getting in the cars and me corey and seigle are gonna go with koof but koof decides to go home for a little so corey jumps in scotts car and there is no room in there so me and seigle run to jimmys car but he has no room and so we got stranded there for 15 min. but jimmy was nice enough to come back and pick us up. so we went to gregs scott and corey went to go pick up tina and sierra in little falls but idk what happend with that they never got the girls. then we did a bunch of piles ons and then eric twisted his knee and it like got spraind and then ashley was taking a picture of like me nick and greg and right before she took the picture i hit greg in the nuts. then eric was complaining about his knee and how everyone was hitting it and he said the next person who hits it he was gonna punch so jimmy threw a pillow at his knee and then eric got up and hit jimmy with a bat like 3 times and then jimmy got up and punched eric in the face like 2 times so a fight broke out and i was on the floor cracking up and everyone was all seriouse. idk tonight was a real fun night. gregs garage is just a fun place to be there are coutchs everywhere and its just awesome. then around 1230 koof took me and corey home alot more stuff happend tonight i just dont feel like explaining it. talk to you all tomorrow i gotta go to bed soon i gotta wake up at 1030 to go take a 3 hour test at 11 its like a PSAT or something. fight tomorrow be there or be square. im not saying where or between who tho. bye

Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: ^ what the hell does giddy mean?

so today was the second day of school but i wasnt there cause im suspended ahh life is great it feels like summer never ended yet. i get to still stay up late and all that fun shit, i woke up today at 2 sat around ate watched tv kinda boring but alot better then going to school. tonight i didnt do much either watched the simpsons, seinfeld, and the sandlot then just came online. for the rest of tonight ill probly just watch howard stern and then whatever else is on tv. tomorrow i figure ill wake up at 2 ill watch some t.v. eat something then shower come online and see if everyone is still going to erics then go to his house and order pizza, the 555 deal, then we will just chill and hang out and party like its still summer. well im gonna go drink some Hi-C orange lavaburst. talk to you all later. have fun in school!

Current Mood: i have a headache
Current Music: louie devito - ecstacy

the count down begins-179days left of school i wont be there for all 179 but ill be there for most of it maybe for like 165 days or something. oh well. cant wait till summer, its coming up. right?


this summer sucked it didnt feel like summer it felt like a two week break. i guess it sucked cause i got in trouble wayyy toooooo much. but there were some good points in the summer especially hellfest! and my second warped tour.

so today was the first day of school and it officialy sucked. im thinking of droping personal financeing and taking shop, my science class blows im the only jr.. in it cause im fucking dumb and i dont know anyone in there so i have no one to talk to. and on top of all this, they band hats in school, hats are my outfit everyday there my life, what the fuck am i gonna do with my hair, it looks like shit with out a hat. so monday when i return to school since im suspended thursday and friday i am starting a pettition. so everyone has got to sign it, and if they still deny us we are gonna protest and we will beat the system. they will not take this right away from us, hats are an article of clothing just like shirts and pants are. they never did anything to anyone they are not disrespectful and dont distract anyone. they have let us wear them before in the past years why the sudden change? well we are gonna fight this untill we win, no matter how long it takes. they make us come to school work for 8 hours sitting on hard uncomfortable chairs in the hot ass building with gay ass boring teachers rambling on about bullshit i will never ever use again, and they have the nerve to take away hat wearing, well fuck that. if i gotta go to school and waste my day there i wanna dress they fucking way i wanna dress. so all the teachers and advisors at CGHS, you can suck my cock! cause i am going to wear my hat untill i graduate, and you will not tell me otherwise.

there got that off my chest. well i have a 4 day weekend. i can stay up later and you guys cant haha. fairfield goes to school the 20 cause there school is under construction but they have to make up the missed days on there saturdays which sucks the big one, so haha to runer and denny and all of you. but its cool ill come visit you one day at school and stick my ass against the window. well im gonna go watched tv or a movie or something that will keep me buisy for the next 5 or 6 hours. peace.

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: my stomach growling

so today is the last day of summer haha fuck school. tomorrow starts the day of another 180 days of school. damn. today i went to the mall with nick corey and jim. then we met koof, eric and scott there and chill with them. i got shoes (converse) i wanted the all black ones but there high tops and im not into high tops so i got the black and white ones, low tops. then we walked around went to pac sun, and we ate wendys and i got spicy chicken. its probly not good eating spicy chicken this much. then after as we were driving back to nicks house i air horned some people. and i got this one girl that was just sitting in her car at a red light and she fliped, she got soooo scared. then me and nick and corey went to nicks to swim and jim went home and eric koof and scott went to best buy and me nick and corey jumped off his roof into the pool. then everyone came back to nicks house and we played wiffle ball then nicks brothers friends came and we started a game with them and we got our asses kicked. they are like professionls at wiffle ball. when they pitched the ball did circles around us. then i came home and slept a little and just hung out.

school is tomorrow. bummer! but i have off thursday and friday soo wuuuuuuuuttttsssss uuuuuuuup

Current Mood: i hate school.
Current Music: fuck school

yesterday we all went to coreys at night for a bonfire wasnt too great, not how i intended to spend my last night of the summer but it wasnt too bad we just chilled and fucked around, went on the trampoline, the zip line, and me a greg built the fire up huge, like 5 feet up and me and eric put 2 lawn chairs in front of the fire and jump over it all. pretty crazy no one thought i was gonna be able to do it, and i did. then eric did it and like twisted his ankle. then we ate smores and jimmy ran home to get this awesome bean dip. so good, we finished it in like 5 min. flat. corey braught out guitars and they were playing and everyone was just chilling. idk it was ok kinda fun. some people had an asshole attitude at times of the night which was a bummer, but it was a chill night for our last night. today im going to the mall with nick and jim hopefully i get 50 bucks and i can buy my cons and then i wanna get a new set of plugs for my ears hopefully i have enough. then i think nick is gonna have a pool party which will take place around 2. so bring your bathing suit. well tomorrow is fucking school, then thursday and friday im off cause im suspended which is pretty damn cool. fuck school =( oh well. its not too bad i just hate the stress that comes along with school. well talk to you all later. buh bye.

Current Mood: just woke up
Current Music: avenged sevenfold - warmness on the soul

yesterday: i woke up at 530 a.m. cause corey said we were leaving for the shore at 6 i got ready and fell back asleep a little after 6 he called me at 730 and said we were leaving at 8. s he picked me up and we went down the shore. it sucked. waves were horrible way too choppy. but they were also huge cause of the hurricane. like 8 footers. so me a corey made a mission to walk all the way out on the jetty without falling off. it was easy, we just got soaked. then after that it was only like 10 so we went to 2 surf shops and i got my shirt and another shirt. there radicle. then we ate SURF TACO. hell yeah. then we left we got home around 2 and i slept till like 5. then at night me and corey and jay went into fairfield cause nizz had a bon fire, we just chilled there the whole night hacky saced and turner avi and nizz through this girl sara in the pool like 2 times then she threw turners hat in the pool and he like tackled her in. soo funny. then we left around 12.

today: jimmy picked me up and we went air horning (driving around in the car and you press the air horn when you pass by random people and they get scared shitless) we got a retarted kid, i felt bad but it was funny. and we met up with scott and corey and eric and corey went in scotts car and me and jimmy were following them and we got wendys and yep i got my spicy chicken biotch. then on our way home scott eric and corey were giving us the finger so at a red light i jumped out of the car and put the air horn in erics window and pressed the button, and i blew out there ear drums, haha, then eric got pissed and got out of the car and threw soda on jim's windshield. then we went to garys and sat there and then jim drove me home and i mowed the front lawn for my dad, and now im here trying to figure out what we are doing tonight for our last night of the summer. we are probly gonna hit up gregs garage then scott is probly gonna drive me eric and corey back to coreys house and we are gonna sleep over there. so hopfully its a good ass night, since its our last. ill inform you all how it ended up later on or tomorrow. god bless you!

Current Mood: chya brah

im feeling good, feeling great, feeling great, feeling good how are you?

so im feeling happy. wanna know why? cause i had wendys spicy chicken. hell ya brah!

so today i chilled home till like 4 then went long boarding with corey for 2 hours then came home showerd and then went to dennises house in fairfield for a besment show. everyone was there. im too lazy to type all there namespretty awesome. good times. then after that we chilled outside his house for 2 hours then me jay and corey went to wendys and i got spicy chicken.

so i gotta wake up at 5:30 a.m. today which is like soon. cause tomorrow me and corey are surfing it up biotch. and monday we are surfing again too. its gonna be wicked awesome. hopefully i get my shirt. well im off to bed. im gonna need sleep. hopefully i dont get killed in the double over head waves tomorrow brah.

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: girl skate video - yeah right

so yeah, today we didnt go surfing.i woke up at 8 cause thats when we were suppose to leave but i know we always leave around 830 so i got up got ready and waited for cory to call it was 9 and he still hadnt called, so i gave him a call his dad answerd and said corey was still sleeping and i go well are we going surfing today and his dad said he had alot of stuff to do for work but if we really wanted to go he would take us. so he said he would go wake up corey and see what he wanted to do and then have corey call me back in 5 min. well a half house later (9:45 a.m.) corey still hadnt called me back so i said fuck it and i went to sleep, corey called me at 11 when he woke up and told me the story. so we are gonna go tomorrow and monday instead. i dont mind that we didnt go i just wish he had told me ealier s, cause its annoying wakeing up early getting ready and then waiting around for an hour and a half for nothing. but oh well. i just better get my fucking button down shirt before school starts. fairfield tonight, dennys basement, show, be there or be square. then probly hukkah smoking at turners house. oh yeah!!!! call me for plans during the day, i have nothing to do now.

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: alkaline trio - my little needle

yeah! im petting my pussy wussy cat, so what?

so today i stayed home and read spark notes, and watched rocky v and a legue of their own. then tonight i skated it up at industrial with corey, matt and jay, and jays friend echoa came but he didnt skate he biked. then we went back to coreys and sat in his room for 2 sec. and went to garys house and jumped on his trampoline like gymnist's, then went back to coreys house fucked around with old school skateboards in his garage and then everyone left so me and corey watched the chocoalet skate video. thats basicly it for today. tomorrow me corey and jay are going surfing, hell yeah! that means surf taco biotch, and ill be getting my all black button down shirt with the two blue roses by the collare at inlet outlet, the shirt is sweet as hell though.

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: himsa - blackout

well sadly today i had no wendys spicy chicken. maybe tomorrow, hopfully, but today i longboarded around with corey. went to the school with eric so he could change his schedual. then ate at guiseppes with corey eric and cas. then went to devils hole and drank pineapple soda with corey and cas. then came home corey chilled at my house for a few, then went to division east with corey and jay then from there we went to fairfield to turners house, everyone was there denny, nature boy, avi, steve, big J, sara (avril), 2 other girls idont know there name tho, and tim i think thats it. we smoked some hukkah, such great shit, i love it. drank NON-alcoholic beer (haha) then we played some guitar and ate combos and 3d doritos, some expensive chocolet, chex mix, and drank hot chocolet. and now im home. well idk what i have planned for tomorrow, maybe scavanger hunt but im not motavated at all to wake up at 12 so idk yet. we'll see. peace out chin!

Current Mood: light headed
Current Music: martyr ad - american hollow

today i woke up at like 1 went long boarding with nick, we each smoked a fat cigar. then went to the high school and changed our scheduals well i did, but nicks guidence counsler was being lazy and told nick some bullshit story so nick is gonna go back the first day of school. then i came home around 3 watched johnny english, then slept till like 630 ate chinese food, then went to gregs. we chilled in his garage and fucked around and just did all this crazy shit. tomorrow im gonna go back to the school around 130 so eric can change his schedual and then around 2 me eric and scott and maybe corey are gonna go to the mall and im gonna buy a killer jaket and a pair of cons (all black hopfully) then probly get spicy chicken at wendys then idk what we will do after that. well im off to bed. good night my young children.

Current Mood: hyper
Current Music: alkaline trio - mr. chainsaw

today i didnt do much. i had my cousins sweet 16 in new york. so we had to leave at like 6 for that. it was pretty boring cause i dont really no anyone there. there not close family. then i got home a quarter to 1 and took a shower and now im here. i found out alot of people i thought were cool suck. no one is online so im probly gonna go watch a movie, either road trip or old school. well im gonna go cop a pack a stoges, payce!

Current Mood: whateverrrrrr!!!!!
Current Music: john lennon - cold turkey

well today i stayed home most of the day till 4, went to erics chilled there then went to garys jumped on his trampolene even though no one was home at his house including gary. then i ate dinner and went to corey's to go to the movies with larissa, lauren and brit, because she is the shit. after the movies we waited till they left and then me and corey went to wendys, and yes of course i got a spicy chicken. DUH!!! and thats about it.

Current Mood: depressed:shitty day
Current Music: blink 182 - carousel

so tonight i went to the grasshopper with cj cause hes leaving tomorrow for arizona and he wanted to have a last supper. then after that we called mr. guisto and left him a nice message since he didnt pick up. then i went to erics and a bunch of people were there we just hung out, then i broke his skateboard in half. but he let me. i dont know what i have planned tomorrow, but give me calls.

Current Mood: thirsty
Current Music: a static lullaby - love to hate, hate to me

so today was good. went biking with cas around 12, we went to mills reservation, hit up some trails over there, so much fun. i broke my cell kinda, as i was coming down a hill i skided and my pocket with my cell in it smashed into a tree and now i have 2 big bright orange spots on the LCD screen. after trail riding we bikes to the mall got some wendys i had a spicy chicken mmmmm soo good. and cas had chinese food, then we went to the arcade and played initial D. then after all that when we were ready to leave it started to rain real hard, so we waited a bit then got out bikes and went to the little falls fair. it sucked we just got some drinks and then came home and i just took a nice cold shower.

tonight i think im going to the grasshopper for dinner with casmirro, will, and cj gruber. should be funny, expecially since gruber is there, i havnt seen him in a while. then after we eat i might go to erics maybe we will play some acoustic guitar and write some songs, i dont know, we shall see and you can tune in later if you would like to see how my night turnd out. hopefully i dont get arrested.

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: blink 182 - toast and bananas

so today i didnt do much had work from 8-230 then came home and slept till 5. i went to coreys around 8 we did some night skateing. ant and matt was there. then i went to garys, and then we walked to this girl shiri's house and we jumped on her trampoline and jumped off her tree house onto it. i almost smashed my face on the metal part, it was funny. then after i went back to coreys sat around for a bit, watched some skate vidz and then came home and ate cocoa puffs.

well for your entertainment i give you a poem made by Eric Noreika

"The church killings"


Raise my scope and cock my gun
Those fucking pedestrians better run
Bullets flying
And people dying

Ive never felt such a fucking rush
The crack of my bullet and the streets are hushed
The cities in dispair
And The priest holds a prayer

The lives of men have come and gone
Now its time to blow my bomb
The fucking explosion
The buildings implosion

Limbs are laid across the street
A mans head lies at my feet
Ive killed so many innocent people
Now I will hide with in this steeple

Now that the killing spree is done
And now that I have had my fun
My life must end in a tragic way
My life must end this very day - "The church killings" by eric noreika

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: sick of it all - hello prick